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Not the Sun
02:18
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I walked away
because I thought I couldn't handle the weight
my muscles as strong as my patience
and my patience is wearing thin
I can't go on pretending to be Atlas
with the world sitting on my shoulders
while it constantly revolves around you
you're not as bright as the sun
You're the light at the end of the tunnel
You're the train roaring on the track
And my death is coming soon
Only distance is bridging the gap
Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me
Sometimes I fear what I still lack
But I know with certainty that one day
the weight of the world will roll of my back
And I'll shrug my shoulders
and remove this boulder
and get on with life
and move forward
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2. |
Modern Living
03:08
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The phone rings at 2:09 at night
or is it 3 in the morning
I never can tell
after I leave town it never sets back right
and so I stay up overthinking everything
that comes to my head til I fall back to sleep
9 o'clock and I wake back up
Same shower
same car
same roads to work
Should i still sing the same old songs
that I wrote out of highschool
about a girl and feelings
that are gone
is it healthy to cling to the past
with the future right in front of my face
will I ever find my place
is it healthy to cling to the past
with the future right in front of my face
will I ever feel like I belong
7 O'clock
shifts over
Same car
Same road
Same shower
And the coffee and house are cold
and the bed calls my name with the same old refrain
don't worry
don't think
just sleep it off
Morning comes and the problems subside
but they don't go away
they come back to haunt me at night
but they don't go away
they come back every (every night)
Old and gray again
(they come back every night)
what if the end's closer than we intend
(they haunt me every night)
Old and gray again
(every night)
What if the end's closer than we intend
What if you need me more than i need you
I need you
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3. |
Reap
04:26
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Not narcisistic or self obssessed
More or less I'd say I'm stressed
In fact I'm teriffied
I should have never said I'm fine
Always the right place, but never the right time
I was the moon and you were the daylight
Non-essential to you,
you were the one who brought me life
Always thought everything had a place
It wasn't love if it didn't bring pain
I thought that you could save
Lust made me to it's slave
Death came to me last night in a dream
grasping my hand, took me to a field
asked me to plant the seeds
and tend to all their needs
I never wanted anything more
than I wanted to not be this man
But there's no way to fix the past
when it's happened it's happened
it's over and done
I am truly the sum of my parts
and I'm digging a greater (w)hole
Broken heart from a broken home
withered in sunlight and drowned in the rain
the mirror image of the blood that runs through me
the blood in my father's veins
How can you measure the good of a man
Are my father's sins my own?
My attempts of creation are meaningless
How much dissonance makes a seed grow?
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Hollywood
03:16
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So we blast off into this abyss of life
that we've known forever
we wake up and realize
everything we've lived's a lie
and everyone's been watching us
the good, the bad, to their disgust
and we've been made to live in their sick, filthy little game
They set me up as a leader
not realizing I'm a sheep
being sent to the slaughter
and they're all following me
into death
to their demise
into torture
into the hurricane's eye
Hollywood has a hold on me
for the rest of my life I'll be dying to be free
Hollywood has a hold on me
All of my life I've been a puppet on their string
From the silver screen I'm controlled by the serpent king
The ruler of hollywood, he's quietly strangling me
as this boa constrictor makes the dark come quicker
the last thing I see are the pigs and goats approaching
Oh god
The animals are all lined up
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5. |
It's All Falling Apart
01:47
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The closer I come to the future
the further i seem to be slipping away
the shining light at the end of the tunnel Is growing darker every day
I'm reaching out but there is nothing
Only voices of cattle watching me fall
I've reached the end with no way back
until I find the truth
It's all falling apart
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